Saturday, February 18, 2017
My Little Brick Cottage....
My little brick cottage is not really even my own. I am just a renter. Lately, though, I have thought a lot about this little house and wondered why I love it so much. It isn't glamourous or fancy. It needs some TLC and lots of paint. But, I love it. When I look at it, I see it through "what it could be" eyes. Up until recent months, I was very close to being able to purchase this little cottage but there were some changes and money was needed for other things. Yes, I have struggled with being sad about that and worried about the "what if" I have to move quite a lot.
One of my greatest painful realizations when I was divorced is that I would probably never live in another house that I owned. It was the realization that I would probably always be a renter. Of course, there are perks to being a renter, but I love the feeling of "my home" and the freedom and security that provides. "My Home" means I belong somewhere even if it is just me. I guess, until my divorce, I had never realized how much that meant to me. Maybe I am somewhat of a homebody?
I do love this little house, though. I love all the great things and all the quirky "why was that done that way" things. I see amazing potential that could be brought out with just a few little sweat equity projects. I envision what a little yard work would do for it. I love walking the tree lined streets of the neighborhood. But, I really think the reason I love it, is I feel safe here.
My boys and I came here at a time when nothing in life felt Ok or safe or right. I was lost and very afraid. This little brick cottage came to me out of a fluke, an unexpected turn and it provided a haven for my boys, my dog (now 2 dogs), and I to start our new life. We worked through a lot of pain and all of us have done a lot of growing up in this house (still are.) This is where we learned to do life, just us. This is where that first Christmas tree went up after our family became fractured. It was hard, but we did it. So many firsts, some good and some bad, have happen here it feels like a lifetime has been lived here. Yes, I know it is just a building but to me it is more....it is home. I have been blessed to have had these walls wrapped around my family to keep us safe, and secure. It has covered us through storms both inside and out. Here's to this amazing little brick cottage in the heart of Florence!